Tuesday, November 28, 2006

religouns email of yestrday say if i give chain to 7 people "Today at 8:33 p.m. Somebody will address you and tell you something You have been waiting to hear."

Mesage i prayfor, did not come.

but BUS CRASHLAST NIGHT at 8"35 p.m!

MY BUS!!!!


is Gods msesage?


is gods mesage,,



CRASH

Saturday, November 25, 2006



Going back to Poetry Class next Sesion at Conmunity Center. Working on one now, asking many for comets on how to improve.

Ok "here goes"




life suck
but is a beautiful morning:
how does that work?

now under racecar, fixing,
see sky from angle
I did not before

palm trees theyt say come from Australia
seem starting to get used to this place,
almost to fit in

my trailer park is full of old people,
they drink & play a card game i dont understand in a secret room by the Laundry in the afternoons
they are trying to have a good time
I like that part of them

there, its the laundry smell,
someone is doing.
how can it be that
god didnt think of all the best smells,
peeople did some too?

but is true!

life suck
but is beautiful morning

i pray for some morning, for him to know
that if he had ful story
he wouldnt feel bad
he been hurt before and somehow come through
clean
i never evereverever want to mess with that

i pray some morning he will know

nothing like that Ever happen to me before



my eyes were Too Young

to spot the Trick being played


WITH poor schizophrenic
poet boy Gods made
propose of marriage to me
on sumer vacation, far from racer K

knowing

how much I wanted to talk to them


did not believe i could just hang with Someone
thought I had to do Harder Unnatural things
for Gods who are not even nice to me


racer k sees good things and brings them out more he
wants your strength

so i am trying to be strong

the 4 days that poor sick child was here
was a surgery on me
took a week to recover
but now Eyes Transplant is complete
& can not look at Life the same



once racer k said i wasn't good enoough for him
later apologize like a flowerbud that open but stil
like a child
i wanted to get back at him
and made Greatest mistake of all,

on World Wide Web


should have waitedtil my eyes adjusted to the light

& it may be true, not good enough for racer k




but now it ring through all my silly lifetimes at once:


fuck not saying what is going on inside you for 3
months to someone you care for !


fuck mariage proposals from Gay Schizo Boy after 2
days of knowing!


FUCK THE GODDS!!!! in they cold stoney asssses!!!


fuck that!!!






racer k was
someone
i could relate to



one more twist of the wrench,
i pray
may be this race car wil be better than yesterday




Thursday, November 23, 2006

COUNTING OF BLESING TIME OK


heavy heart but

myst say, LIFE BETTER NOW THAN OF ONE YEAR AGO!!!!!


# 1. MORE MOENY!!!!! = "HIGH FIVE ALL AROUND "!


Boss is Boss of Paramedics = Dream of use Race Skills to Become Paramedic and Save Lives, gets me through day!



#2. NOW, LIKe LORD,, can rest ON SUNDAY!!!!


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#3 NEW DESK, BEST EVERRRRR = "solid LEGIT" as kids of today are SAYing! hold whole shed of notebooks & trailer still stand ok!



4. thanks of cola drinks and junk foods, which they can bring you back to LIFE.


5. new race COACH 2 p.m. SATURDAYS.


6. TRIPOD STAND NOW HOLD TRAILER IN PLACE beter SO DONT WOBLE SO MUCH!!!! Big deal around here!


7. SOLID FAMILY LIFE. father and mother and sister and brother, must say beter than EVER in geting along, they race too so understanding each other.

8. dogs still like me despite hrecent horible events


MUST TO STOP BEING soooo SADDD AND anxiety and START of BEING THANKFILLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!




LONG LIST OF THANKSFULLS COMING, STILL WORKING ON!!!!!


Wednesday, November 08, 2006





BIG PROBLEMS!!!!

HURT REAL BAD!!!

TAKESS EVERYTHING GOT TO KEEP DRIVING TO HOSTPITAL NO SHORTCUT ASIGHT



Tuesday, November 07, 2006





BEST BOOK EVERR in LAUNDRY ROOOM!!!!!


is "'WHERE TO FIND GOLD IN SOUTHERN CALIFNORNIA"!!!


is by JAMES KLEIN! Part time actor and FULL TIME GOLD FINDER!



Says:

Ask any old prospector where the best place to search for gold is and, more than likely, he will tell you, "Gold is where you find it." After you have been prospecting for a while, you will find that no truer words were ever spoken. You can find gold in many places in Southern California. This book will show you where and how, in addition to giving you leads on finding a lost treasure as well.

!!!!!


ALSO:

After several years of mining, I found a lost gold mine. A professional geologist and a licensed state of California assay laboratory have estimated that my mine contains SEVERAL MILLION DOLLARS IN GOLD AND SILVER.!!!!!!


(((emphasiS MINE!!!)



Book shows where gold IS in suburbs including NEWHALL, VLENCIA, SAN GABRIEL VALLY anfd San Juan Capistrano!



JAMES I GOT THE EQUINPEMTN YOU RECONMEND and ear to ground!!!







needing to know

I came to Minneapolis from southern California this May to help my 88-year-old mother care for my 86-year-old father. He fell last November, and then declined cognitively for a month as his bones healed at a rehab facility under quarantine. He hasn't undeclined. Before retiring in the 1990s, he was a theater critic, & still seems to have some of his self-confidence and wit alongside vascular dementia, Parkinsonisms, incontinence and real trouble walking. Given his otherwise-ok health, he might still have some tolerable years ahead, though with new parameters. My mom's a novelist. She seems made of iron.