very stange.



my trailer got biger. some how.


i do not know how this could ocure.



But feels about 15 3/4 inches wider.



i do not know how everyting feeling so open and easy now. not all tight like before. more just normal




is true, life so bigger from power of gasoline as previously said below.




=IS true!!!!!




so big i thinking, "I AM TOO BIG FOR TRAILER. I AM LIFE SO BIG!”



well. i tell you this trailer, lots of storage space. 27 ft Long, SLEEP SIX! storage space even in the floors. =Built In

3 years = still finding new storage spaces in this trailer.oh so much BIGER on the inside than it look on the outside!


but never underestimate the ability of a Trailer to Grow

sister wracer IS SO FAST!!!!!

IS another Great racer,

IS beatiful Wilma Elizabeth McDaniel, picture HERE



went to funeral
in Tulare California yesterday, and glad (though still not 100% sure if she is realy is dead)





had HUGEcircuit, for racer who done it from home. MANY fans. During tributations, Writer of this book calling her and merle Haggard "only two bards of california okie heritage' in fact!

Shwe Brought God to these races without anouncement. strange enough, born 3days before christmas died 5 days after easter. called "lay franciscan" also. Once askt me "I don't want my saints perfect. Thatd be boring, don't you think?


Don't you?"



Wanted answer! I must have thought was too complicated at the time (probly aspiring Boring Saint mysef), don't think i gave a real anser.


SHOULD HAVE!


"remarkbly well adjusted for spinster poet."she thought she was. On a postcard she stuck in one of her books she gave me, she sayd:




Sometimes
an other fool
will see
what I see in
a poem





gonA take a long time to teach methat she is gone

SMELL SO GOOD OUTSIDE!!!!! SMELL THE BEST


=

NEW LEMON TREE

JASMIN

ROSES!!!!!!!''

SMEELLLS THE BEST!!!!!!!

Is power of gasoline, to make my life geting biger!


I can FELE IT! POWER OF GASOLINE!


BUT,GASOLINE MAKE IT =TOO BIG FOR TRAILER!!!!!!!





IF YOU LLOOKIN FOR "ROOM MATE" OR KNOW SOME BODY LOOKIN FOR "ROOM""MATE",




PLEASE BE TELLING ME!!!!!

beautiful morning this morning

EVERYBODY HAS STORY OK!!!!!!


MY GRAMA WAS GREAT RACER. WITH GREAT INJURIES. WAS IN PAPERS FROM VEGAS TO OMAHA


SOOOOOOO LONG, I WANT TO BE JUST LIKE AS HER!


FINALY! GOT SOME INJURIES! (NOT AS GOOD AS HERS, BUT STILL, I FEEL SPECIAL AND PROUD!)




TODAY THOUGH FOR FUN OF IT I WANTED TO SMILE ALL THE WAY. ALONE DRIVING HOME FROM “L.A.”


I TRY AND I TRY.


BUT TURNS OUT



= I CANOT SMILE ALL THE WAY WITH SUCH GOOD PROBLEMS!




AT THIS MOMENT ROLLED DOWN SQUEAKY 1984 CAMRY WINDOW AND THROW PROBLEMS ONTO 605 FREEWAY


LUCKY NO COPS AROUND


NOW AM HAVING NEW COURAGE =NOT TO HAVE PROBLEMS AND TO SMILE


ALL THE WAY


IT COME FROM NO ONE AT ALL

GRANDMA GONA BE DIFERENT KIND OF RACER FROM YOU.

hurted right shoulder racing over sister fence to unlock gate in AUGUST

STILL HURT donot know why or what is wrong


new insuranance Doc Bernard Reimer of flag pins and yellow ribbons come in look me up and down like a boyfrend (????) then slow pulling my shirt shoulder down saying no MRI needed, canot be fixed, will not prescribe even SLING, litle lady, we just gonna Shoot Cortisone I got needle right here!




I SAY Doc Bernard Reimer, you got no IDEA how to support the troops!!!!!


= am going lefthanded wiht sling bought by SELF TODAY. not so hard, my left hand just more angry than the right. good thing doc Bernard Reimer not here haha!

went to poetrey races last night!




SOOOOOOOOOO out of practiceing!!!!!!!!!




been on "detox" plan" for apprx 42 days!!!!! is NO MEAT NO MILK NO CHEESE NOT EVEN BEANS OKAY!!!!!


IS HARD!!!! been wanting to stop but not 100% sure if is right!



suposed to make you race faster. But after actual poetry races of last night, PRETTY SURE IS JUST THE OPPOSITE!!!!!



YES





"BRING ON" THE TOXICSS!!!!!!!!!!!

HELP! trying to be pulling "head" "out of" "ass"~~~~!!!


world is helping!!!!! world is

HERE ARE THANKSFULS ARE TODAY!

1. today starting "80 HOUR PER PAYPERIOD"!!!!! meanS "full time", GOOD for crerdit care DEBT AND BETTER LIVING IN 21ST CENTURY!

2. RACE CAR ENGINE REPLACEMENT, GOING MUCH FASTER THAN EVER!

3. STILL HAVE HEALTH and GOODLOOKS HAHA!

more things you can give to me!


OK:

"Louis Armstrong music" and pictures!

old blankets for covering race car seats




You never told me your top things! Please be telling me.

SUDEN CHANGING EVENTS


RACE CAR ENGINE REBUILD



= TODAY!!!!!!!!



GONNA GO SOMUCH FASTERR!!!!!!!!

Here is a good idea.



we should give each other things. but NOT "special occasion" or trade. ONLY if we really feel like it. like oif you gonna give to someone and they already giving to you you have to wait after they giving you before you can give them, maybe like six weeks (?)(not 100% sure about this what do you think.)


here are the top things you can give me, but only if you realay feel like it:




Race Tickets Of course!
dirt
wig (is "Fun!")
musics of band caled "T Rex music" is such good musics!
Battery Charging Machine.
Pots For Plants
Paint For Walls (Any Color)




Please tell me your top things

1. OK MISTER PICTURE MAN OF COMENTS!





(Pretty sure you are a man. ?)




OK if youare,, Pretend you are at Beauty Contest of "MISS UNIVERSE" with camera ok. (Even "Gay Man" like Miss Universe Contest right.)





Maybe you are thinking at Miss Universe Contest , "How Amazing life to let me see so much Beauty." Or even just, "how the hell did I get these tickets???"





3 May Be you start to take pics cause some guy asking you to. But maybe every single second of All-Day Competition is such Beauty= taking pics gonna take all your time! And Eyes give up on Having Fun after first few mins squinting into camera.






4. Then you notice how many countries there are in the Universe. All are important





5. Maybe you look at photos in camera so far + feel GUILTY toward Beauty & Universe not to photography GOOD ENOUGH! Maybe finally decide dont even GIVE A DAM if anyone else sees the Power and Beauty of the Universe. Is more thatn you ever seen in one place in whole life & just watching today,= IS ALL!









7. Maybe this is not how you would feel at Miss Universe Contest but anyway this is how I felt about Hot Rods on Saturday.








WHO are you anyway

I HAVE MANY THINGS TO SAY ABOUT WHY NOT TAKE PICS AT RACES (SEE COMENT!). BUT MUST THINK OF THEM FIRST!

wish i was Hot Rod of NHRA!!!! '65 mustang going, 300 mph!!!!

top reasons:


1. Beauty! Not sure how but Every Hot Rod Car GOGEOUS when even not the shiny kind and every one is Different from the Others. "Damn"


2. Excitment! 300+ mph, start racing on hind legs, wheels set ground on fire, pooping flammable, parachuting at end, commmentaor you hear but not see etc.


b3. Engine on the outside, seems good



4. don;t know about you but sometimes my life has "NAGGING FUCK OF IT ALL" type of feeling. Things regret, wory about , etc




Do you know the people who lean against the chain link fence ground level to get close as they can to Hot Rods going 300 mph?



Pretty sure = Nagging Fuck of It All put them there.



True = Hot Rods going 312 mph 100 feet away from nagging fucks gonna BLAST them right off! Even with Earplugs! "Vibrations alone" do Major Damage to Naggine Fuck, at least for awhile.





5. I want to do that for people.

UPDATE: POOMONA WINNTER NATIONALS NEXT WEEEKND~!!!!!!

I AM LUCK Y OR WHAT GUYS

REPORT IS:trying to be LIFE "GOOD"!!!!!

MANY WONFERULLEARNINGS FROM COACH AND OTHER TRUE HEARTD RACERS!

Coach say Always Follow "INNTUITION" (not knowing lot about that but WILLING TO LEARN!)

Say: ABOVE 200 MPH, SPEED OF CAR AND THE INTUITION OF DRIVER are SAME THING."



Still do not understand that statement! DEEP, man!




(I just say: GO!!!!!)

Even Now,




Miss racer k energy and skin!!!!



OH "NAGGING FUCK" OF ITALL!

gone to Hospital HabingtatHumanity Oriendation Day today,


= is ALL OVER for me and "SAN JAN"




=Am not NEEDY nough !




to Orientation Ladies of Earth Tones and Perfect Spanish Prononoucings and just wanting to "Include everyones"





i have needs too







you have no idea

EVER SINCE Special Chrismas hostpital Office Lunch Party of last year, seem like always thinkin about SAN JAN CAPSTRno!!!




always thinkin bout san jan capstrano!!!!!



today Work "E" MAIL saying
'Habnitat for Humamity" (?) come to MY OFFICE TOMORROW gonna sign me Up to get my HOUSE BUILD of SAN JAN CAPISTRANO!!!!!




wAIT FOR ME, I am coming san jan capstrano!!!!!!




[do "swallows" really "return to" ? WILL BE FINDING OUT!!!!!]

Am haveing to say, I want to know racer K.






Oh, is a poem.

Come on, Is time for starting of BANNNNDDDDD!!!!





So far is just me, but when other people joining gonna ROCK IT OUT!!!!!!!




Band name Is from email just came from Friendly Dating Service, is called




= "Hottest Local Christians'



Canno t tell me is not Great Mane !


Come on along ang join the Band!!!!!!!


So far have one guitar only so be bringing instrument to first Rock Music Practice Session of I will tell you when! Do you have a banjo. We do "covers song" too so bring of some rockers! I likw to sing harmony! What do you think!





here is top 4 of my wanting of "covers songs" right now :



is "TAMBOURINE" of "Prince Music,"

"Brand New Key" by "Melanie,"

"fire" of "Bruce The Boss ,"

also "Hollywood Bulevard" song of "Kinks!" and

"PLEASE DONt BE GENTLE WITH ME" of Minute Msn, It May Be even best song ever ok!















just wake me up and tug my hair
and let me know
all the outside of the world and you are there
and never be too gentle with me














We could do a million songs

is by Jaymie Pinkston and is HOW I FEEL SOMETIMES!

my trailer park is mostly Old People and Children



= "packing it in" EARLYnround here. (exceot me of course!)



almost 12 othernight come back frome the dumsters i am hearing . through open window in trailer next door,





= is betany?




i go to other side of their trailer near Front Door and am seeing in in Addon Window. she kneeling at jonathan bed in dark when he asleep on Fold Out CouchBed near Christmas Tree. her face wet of tears reflect and braces too. looking like she PRAYING with hands in Church Position.






she saying a lot of stuff i could not hear. i want to knock on Window and catch her eye but would wake up her father. i go to back inside of my trailer try to send Gold To her through the blinds.

Physical Fit is New "Must" of year 2007!!!



other night am runing (!),


in COLD Dark Blue Of Costa Mesa Nights





go 12 minutes, = IT IS HARD!!!!





BUT am "pace it" as PHysical Fitness Magazine is recomending on newport bulevard






When a Old Man With Army Hat coming fasst in a Wheelchair over curb towd me,









And he saying Yes loud! to my running!



and he pop a Wheelie!



and that is All He Say!,



And he Keep Going not looking back to me!


first TIME I am running 30 minutes all the way home not even stoping!
and i am \never before undersdtanindg until now what this Cold Unfrendly Air was for